The case of the missing appetite...

I wonder what was the last thing that I did because I really wanted to do it. And I don't mean eating or drinking something or something else of the kind. I mean really doing something.

Let me do a quick retrospection - I had really wanted to do engineering. Well, I did it. Only to realize that I could have done better than doing a B.Tech. When in school, I had wanted to work in some nice, big and reputed Software firm. Well, here I am now. Only to wonder what I was thinking when I made that wish. I learnt music, even without knowing how much I loved it. So, I don't know if I can count that as my own achievement. I had wanted to write. Again, here I am, writing, to no real end but at least writing.

I had really wanted to do an MBA, and then get into some field that I could relate to more than these bits and bytes that I am dealing with now. And somewhere in the recent past I thought I'd give up this crazy corporate world and rather study things that I really love - Language, Music, Arts. And maybe sometime know enough of these things to be able to teach a few people about them.

Wishing and wanting is fine. And is maybe the first step. But where is the hunger that will make me quit what I am doing now and run towards these wishes? I remember having that once. I still trust myself enough to know it hasn't completely died out. I still hope that this trust is not a consolation I'm giving myself. I keep telling myself that me having that thought itself is a sign that things aren't completely lost yet. How long will I continue to thrive on this consolation is something I don't want to know. But the way things are going, the answer is not too comforting.

I recently purchased one of those fridge magnets which give you something to think about. This one has a quote by Emily Dickinson which says - "Dwell in possibility". I do. I need another magnet which tells me to make possibility a reality. Maybe then I'll get there too.


~K.

Bang Bang...!!!

A friend told me about this shooting range in town. So I thought I'd check out the site before checking out the place itself. The following got me hooked...

UNIVERSAL FIREARMS SAFETY RULES

1. All guns are ALWAYS loaded

2. Never point a gun at anything you are not willing to destroy

3. Keep your finger off the trigger until your sights are on the target

4. ALWAYS be sure of your target and what is behind and beyond it.


More when I shoot some myself....

~K.

Tryst with Mutiny

I, am generally, quick to take offense; and hence quick to defend myself. And when stuck in a situation like that, I can get bellicose, belligerent and even ballistic.
Oh well, balls to all that!
Come to my workplace some time (if you have the access that is…). Some of the calls that happen in and around my bay are typical examples of situations that I was hinting at in the beginning of this article.
You get to learn a lot. For instance – the effectiveness of “danda” (as we call it) as a digestive aid for breakfast, also that you can well substitute your (or mine maybe) morning workout and breakfast with this same danda, only it’ll leave you hungrier than ever for lunch. You also end up having a couple of laughs, but that is strictly subject to the condition that you are able to view the entire scene objectively, and find it funny that you, the belligerent, bellicose, ballistic and blah blah blah type, can get tongue tied at the hands (or is it vocal chords… ;-) ) of one man.

Lessons learnt for today –

1. Do not skip breakfast for the sake of “danda”, unless you don’t mind hogging for lunch… (that too on food you may not be particularly fond of).
2. Know when to fight, when to fight back and when to shut up.
3. Do not even think of fighting without doing your homework.
4. Keep giving yourself an occasional laugh (or at least a smirk!). In other words… stay objective.
5. Bless the soul who put the ‘Mute’ button in the phone sets.

Until more of these "learnings" come in... (I have a funny feeling they'll come pretty quick...) just remember....

"Sab ganda hai par danda hai yeh.... " ;-)

~K.